A good laugh

Thought we all might could enjoy a good laugh. Hope you enjoy it as much as I did.

Have you ever spoken and wished that you could immediately take the words back... or that you could crawl into a hole? Here are the Testimonials of a few people who did....


FIRST TESTIMONY:
I walked into a hair salon with my husband and three kids in tow and asked loudly, "How much do you charge for a shampoo and a blow job?" I turned around and walked back out and never went back My husband didn't say a word... he knew better.

SECOND TESTIMONY:
I was at the golf store comparing different kinds of golf balls. I was unhappy with the women's type I had been using. After browsing for several minutes, I was approached by one of the good-looking gentlemen who works at the store. He asked if he could help me. Without thinking, I looked at him and said, "I think I like playing with mens balls"

THIRD TESTIMONY:
My sister and I were at the mall and passed by a store that sold a variety of candy and nuts. As we were looking at the display case, the boy behind the counter asked if we needed any help. I replied, "No, I'm just looking at your nuts." My sister started to laugh hysterically. The boy grinned, and I turned beet-red and walked away. To this day, my sister has never let me forget.

FOURTH TESTIMONY:
While in line at the bank one afternoon, my toddler decided to release some pent-up energy and ran amok. I was finally able to grab hold of her after receiving looks of disgust and annoyance from other patrons. I told her that if she did not start behaving "right now" she would be punished.

To my horror, she looked me in the eye and said in a voice just as threatening, "If you don't let me go right now, I will tell Grandma that I saw you kissing Daddy's pee-pee last night!" The silence was deafening after this enlightening exchange. Even the tellers stopped what they were doing. I mustered up the last of my dignity and walked out of the bank with my daughter in tow. The last thing I heard when the door closed behind me, were screams of laughter.

FIFTH TESTIMONY:
Have you ever asked your child a question too many times??? My three-year-old son had a lot of problems with potty training and I was on him constantly. One day we stopped at Taco Bell for a quick lunch, in between errands It was very busy, with a full dining room. While enjoying my taco, I smelled something funny, so of course I checked my seven-month-old daughter, she was clean. Then realized that Danny had not asked to go potty in a while. I asked him if he needed to go, and he said "No".

I kept thinking, "Oh Lord, that child has had an accident, and I don't have any clothes with me." Then I said, "Danny, are you SURE you didn't have an accident?" "No," he replied. I just KNEW that he must have had an accident, because the smell was getting worse. Soooooo, I asked one more time, "Danny did you have an accident ? This time he jumped up, yanked down his pants, bent over, spread his cheeks and yelled "SEE MOM, IT'S JUST FARTS!!"

While 30 people nearly choked to death on their tacos laughing, he calmly pulled up his pants and sat down. An old couple made me feel better, thanking me for the best laugh they'd ever had!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST TESTIMONY:
This had most of the state of Michigan laughing for 2 days and a very embarrassed female news anchor who will, in the future, likely think before she speaks. What happens when you predict snow but don't get any! We had a female news anchor that, the day after it was supposed to have snowed and didn't, turned to the weatherman and asked: "So Bob, where's that 8 inches you promised me last night?" Not only did HE have to leave the set, but half the crew did too they were laughing so hard!



Now, didn't that feel good? Share this with someone you know who needs a laugh and remember we all say things we don't really mean, so think before you speak

Life takes time.......... so, enjoy all the time and as much as you can........

IT'S ARRIVED!!!

I got my dress in yesterday. Talk about a quick delivery. I tried it on and wouldn't ya know......I look soooo gorgeous in it. I am excited. I am going to have to curl my hair for this one. It fit like a dream and is way skinny-fyin' too which is even better. YEA ME! I could stand for it to be cut a little lower in the front but hey....wouldn't want to show out the bride..lol. So now I just have to get w/ i and make my mask. i has some masks we are going to decorate to match the costuming that you wear. I won't be able to wear the mast while I am working during the wedding but I will be able to during the party afterwards. HEE HEE HEE. I am so excited. Not to mention that I am getting so many new ideas for when I get married. Whoever I end up w/ better be prepared b/c I probably will not have an expensive wedding but it will be unique. That is a guarantee.

So it's Friday, the week is finally over. I am at the library typing up this post before I head home. Yesterday was just the day of delivery, my modem for my computer was delivered yesterday as well. Unfortunately I will not be able to use it until next Thursday b/c that is the soonest that the man can come to my house and basically put a pin in the phone box so that I will have service. Why they don't just mail that w/ instructions like everything else I don't know. But I'll be dog, I have everything set up and waiting for when he does come stick that pin in. It's been over a year since I have had internet in my house. Can we say I have been more than just a little deprived. Not net, no cable, & only about 3 channels to watch (6 on a good day depending on how the wind blows). Now the possibilities are endless..hee hee hee. Who knows the trouble I might be able to get into. Should prove interesting to say the least.

R. will be coming up tonight. Who knows what all we will do. We never really plan to do much of anything but it always seems that plans get made anyway. L.'s new sweetie is coming to the UGA game this weekend. I don't have tickets to this one but I told her that R. would be here and she said she might tag along w/ her sweetie and we could all meet up at a bar or something and watch the game together. You never know what might happen when you get those two together. Too bad S. isn't coming w/ him. He has this fetish w/ L. and always enjoys spending time in her company. I guess that means that R. and I will just have to take lots of pics to share w/ him and make him unbelievably jealous. We tried to tell ya S. But you have to play nice first before I'll let you reap any benefits. Then on Sunday i said that she may come and hang out for a while. We didn't get to go to the gym really this week so I haven't seen her. I can't wait to show her my dress.

Anyway, I guess I better jet now. The computer is starting to get confuse b/c I am typing too fast and it isn't able to keep up w/ me. (Welcome to small town GA) So I will post again later. I am trying to be a little better about posting. So until I post again, be sure to keep your fingers out of the garbage disposal.

Weekend

OK, before I start let me do some house keeping. When I type something out and at some point state that the words I type are not being said in anger, malice, or anything that would at all be negative, I mean it. I didn't mean it in a bad way. However, some people still read it as such and then try to come to me mad and all up in arms about it. I am sorry if you have misread something I wrote as being negative, pissy, bitchy, or as directed at you. Believe me when I tell you that if I have a problem w/ you or something you have done, I will tell you about it. Usually if it's posted here it's something I have already talked to you about and just want to vent. However, the last blog had nothing said in it that was in anyway meant to be directed at anyone as a derogatory remark. The last blog was written as a way for me to just sit down and put down the things that were in my mind. This is after all my world. I never said that what goes on in my head makes sense. I just hate it when every time I type something on here someone comes back all pissed off. If you can't read what I type and know that it's just something that's in my head and that I don't have a problem, concern, or an issue w/ you, or that what I have typed is not necessarily directed at you or something that is negative or directed towards you, then DON'T READ MY BLOG! I know that I tend to let myself get over stressed and over worked quite frequently. I also know that when I am over stressed and over worked, if you don't know me, everything that come from me can be misunderstood and construed as being bitchy. But, if you know me, you know that is not the case. But if you feel that it was the case then I tend to think that either you read it on a day that you were in a bad mood yourself or you feel guilty about what you read in some way b/c you feel that it somehow applies to you. If the latter is the case then it's something you are going to have to make amends w/ yourself. So again, I am sorry if at any point any of you have read something and thought that I was being bitchy or jeering things at you from here. But again I say, believe me when I tell you that unless you refuse to talk to me I would come to you about any problem before it would see the light of day on here.

That being said, let me move on to brighter things....

This past weekend was much more than I really expected. It was a good weekend though. Friday night I went to a concert. The girl that I mentor, SM, offered up a couple of tickets to a concert that was going on at the Ga. Theatre. It was really good. A band called Rusted Root played. They really were amazing. She had won 2 sets of tickets on the radio and offered i and me the other two tickets. We took her up on it. I thoroughly enjoyed it. The band combined so many different styles of music and so many different instruments that I was truly drawn into the show just trying to anticipate what would come next. I had a blast. I didn't get home until after 2am.

Many of you also know that I've never been one to really care for football. I have always said that the best part of a football game is the halftime show w/ the bands. I also ended up going to a UGA game Saturday. L dragged me to the game b/c she wanted to go but didn't want to sit alone. SM had a couple of tickets that she wasn't going to be able to use so L and I bought them and went to the game. It was my first UGA game and I will have to admit that I wouldn't mind going to another one. Traffic SUCKED but other than that......OMG. I think that L has converted me. All I can say is... GOOOOOOOO DAWGS, SIC'EM WOOF WOOF WOOF!

After the game I went and hung out for a while w/ SM and chatted and went to hang w/ some of her friends and grill out and......you'll never guess it.....watch the Fla vs TN game. Gotta know what we're facin' . After that game we watched the Army vs MN( I think it was MN). Either way it was a really close and good game. Army lost at the last min b/c they tried to run it from the 2 yard line. DUH PPL! Throw the frickin' ball. But then again that's something UGA is gonna have to improve upon as well. After the games we watched some Dane Cook, who is always good for a laugh and then headed home. Again I got home around 2am.

After all this I was still able to get up and go to church on Sunday. Don't ask me how I did it. Sunday I basically stayed home and relaxed. It was nice. So all-in-all I'd say I had a good weekend. It's been a while since I have had a weekend that.....exciting I guess you'd say. However, I 'll have to admit I don't think I could do that every weekend. But then again....maybe I could. Definitely something I wouldn't mind trying I suppose.

So the week has started off ok thus far. Monday was just typical. I met SM for our weekly mentoring. She had a rough day. Keep her in your prayers, her aunt died and it's always hard to look a family member. We had a good session though. She learned some things but she's still nervous about going to the immersion weekend. I think she'll be ready for it. I'm excited that she'll be going and wish I could but you can't be of the advanced level and participate. I know the person who is in charge,PF, and she was the one that told me I am too advanced. That made me feel good to hear her say that but I hated it b/c it meant that I wouldn't be able to participate w/ SM. PF did tell me though that if this one was a success that there would be one for advanced students. I can only hope.

Today was nothing major. It wasn't really a busy day or anything. When I leave school I will be heading over to the gym to swim my 1/2 mile. I ordered a dress for a wedding that I am going to in Oct. and I need to be able to fit into it when it gets here. Keep your fingers crossed for me. It's a renaissance masquerade wedding so it should be fun. I am looking forward to it. Now I just have to go home and dig out my old mask or talk to SM about borrowing her's. It's really nice. The mask that she has is white w/ black and red feathers so it should go well w/ my dress. It's an all black dress so I will need a little color.

This is the link to the dress I ordered:
http://www.museumreplicas.com/webstore/eCat/women_s_clothing/fantasy/clothing/baroness_dress.aspx
So now you know. So if you are going to the wedding you know which one I will be wearing so DON'T ORDER THE SAME DRESS!!! I always did like being the unique one. Now no one has an excuse as to why I can't be..lol. Yea, ok, I know it's wishful thinking but it's my world ok. I like the blissfulness of occasional ignorance. Reality is there for me to face when I wanna.

Update

Ok, so we all know that consistency has never really been my forte. I never claimed it was. But I am here once again to spill out what I can and see what I can come up w/ out of what I have. Typically it ain't much but hey, I deal w/ what I got.

This weekend nothing is really going on. Hopefully I can drag my friend, i, into some trouble. I am sure that we can go hiking at the river or something. There is a game in town this weekend so I am sure that it will be slammed in town and almost not worth the trouble of even setting foot out the door in that general direction. Who knows. Basically, it's just me at home. Might be nice for a change.

Next weekend B was supposed to come but plans change, as usual. A. has a Dr. appointment in Atl and she was going to stay w/ me so that she wouldn't have to get up early to get there and wouldn't have to drive back same say and what not. But understandably B's mom wants to go, so she won't be coming. Disappointing but understandable. However, she knows that her mom is welcome to come and stay at the house as well, and I have told her that many times, but I guess they would rather do it their own way. NP, I tend to do the same. Last time I was home I had my oil changed and other matainence done on my car. In the process they were supposed to put new wipers on my car as well but they forgot. B. was going to bring those to me when she came but since she isn't coming I had to find someone else who was coming up this way.

Who else would there be to come to my rescue, as always, R. He's going to bring them to me so that I can see worth diddley in the rain. It's actually been raining a good bit up here so that might come in handy. This will be the second time he has had to do that. The first time was when my grandmother died. But R. has to come up next weekend for an interview anyway so I guess it all worked out. He wasn't going to stay w/ me if B. was coming b/c they don't exactly get along but since she won't be able to come he's comin' up and we'll hang out some. He and I have some things to talk through anyway. I think that he's finally facing some harsh realities that he had been denying, which is good but I know it's really hard for him. He is still an awesome friend to have. He reads me better than anyone I have ever known and usually knows my moods before I ever realize them. I do realize that our relationship my not me as healthy as it should be b/c of the obvious circumstances but we are still the best of friends. Some people have issues w/ the fact that we are still such close friends but that's their beef, not mine. If anyone has a reason to hold a grudge against him it's me, but why damn myself that way. I understand that my friends don't care for him b/c of what he did to me, and B. isn't the only one, but it doesn't mean it's not wrong. Oh well, who am I to change their minds. But that's just me venting from over stress and working too much so if you are reading this and get pissy b/c of something I said, don't take it to heart. This blog is for me to get it off my chest, at least for a while. If you happen on it and feel guilty for something I have said, it's apparently something you need to look at and figure out why you feel guilty. Don't come bitching to me able it.

I talked to R.'s old roommate S. the other day. It's been a while since we have talked b/c I felt a little betrayed. I can't say that we're all buddy buddy again, but at least we're on speaking terms. To be honest w/ ya I've missed talking to him and bitching about things w/ him. Our monthly bitch sessions always were the greatest.

Things are SOOOOOO much better at school this year, well at least staff wise anyway. Student wise we have some bumpy areas to work out but nothing major. Hopefully, we will have a workshop soon on interpreter use. Once we have had that I think that some of the other hearing staff might get it a little better. I look forward to that. It never ceases to amaze me how little the hearing world knows and understands about Deafness. Usually, it's just common sense stuff. As I've said before, common sense is not so common.

Anyway, I don't know what else there is to tell. Everything has just been the same old boring mundane stuff I guess. Which I am not complaining about! So until next time, just be patient and I'll keep you posted when there's something to tell.

Dealing

Ok, so admittedly I deal w/ things a little differently than most people. I deal w/ emotional situations a lot like my dad does, and like my dad, very few people understand how I deal. Sometimes people get offended with the way that I handle things close to the heart, but that's just me and to do it any other way probably wouldn't be pretty.

I have had a really hard time dealing w/ the death of my grandmother. I was very close to her so needless to say I've been very emotional lately. I have become quiet, reserved, secluded, and don't really want to talk about it much w/ people that don't know me and how it was with my granny and me (which really narrows down the field). However, I have also become even more jittery and have an even greater need to be doing something, more so than usual that is. Before I left going back home to help w/ everything I gave my house a through cleaning. Yesterday when I got home I watered my flowers, planted some peppers and strawberries, and took the house plants that were sent to the funeral that I brought home outside and watered them and arranged them on the porch for the summer. After I got everything done I wanted to do outside I went inside, ate a little something, and decided that I didn't want to wait for Mama to come and help me rearrange my furniture, so I started doing it by myself. I moved the big desk out of my bedroom and into the living room, and the little desk from the living room into my bedroom, then moved the bookshelf to where I wanted it, the recliner and coffee table are lying in wait right now until the TV stand gets moved to the corner where the little desk was, and the big couch is put on the wall where the TV stand is. Then the recliner will be put by the window and I haven't decided where the coffee table will go yet. I'm workin' on it. (*looks back and reads* Yea, I think we can all see how my mind works when I'm all emotions....there's a good example just in writing..lol.) So I've obviously been a busy beaver and I'm afraid to see what will happen once I have everything done. That's coming up soon.

Also, b/c of the way that I cope B. thinks I'm pissed at her. She thought that I didn't want her to come to the house the other day b/c of the way I sounded on the phone. She said that from the tone of my voice she didn't think I wanted her there. In reality I did (which I explained in the previous post) and sounded that way b/c I was trying to keep myself from breaking down on the phone. I guess B. doesn't know me as well as we all thought. That's what 5 years of not talking and seeing each other will do to ya I guess. But I'm not mad and I still love her same as always, but apparently the feelings not the same from the look of her myspace. But she has to understand that I posted what I posted last time for the same reason that I post almost everything. So that I can get things out so that they aren't in my head, so that I don't have that burden of thought process left on my shoulders, so that I can look back at them and rationalize it and see where the issue lies and what I can do to resolve it. That is why I post people. B/c it's what's in my head, a perspective of things from my world. Don't take any of it personally or to heart b/c I am willing to bet that when you read it, it will not be in the tone for which I meant it to be. Not to mention, if you aren't accustomed to dealing w/ emotional or depressed me it's a whole new ball game. It's just a part of how I deal and cope with things. I'm sorry for those of you who don't understand it, or don't get it, or don't want to have to deal with it, but I can't be sorry for doing it. It's just part of who I am and if that confuses you or upsets you just stop and ask me about it and I'll be happy to explain whatever it is that happened for you.

It wasn't just B. that was thrown off by my way of dealing, it was some of my extended family. Wed. I left the funeral home in a rush, some thought it was b/c I was mad b/c my brother forgot to bring me my purse, but in reality it was b/c I was up visiting my granny w/ my papa and he leaned over and kissed her. It just really threw me b/c I knew that was something I wouldn't get to see ever again. I didn't want everyone to see me in that state so I left for a while until I could find myself again, and then I returned. I can honestly say that's an image I'll probably never get out of my head. But at the same time, to know that when you've had a man to love you so much that he would kiss you even after you were cold and long dead, then you know you have truly been loved.

For those of you who have never had the "pleasure" of having the experience of emotional me, just know that the bubbly, goodie goodie, sweet, do anything for ya L. that you all know and love just ain't there. I am more of a mild withdrawn person that if set off is more of the pessimistic, cynical bitch. Some might say like I was my Sr. year in HS (which wouldn't be far from wrong b/c the first half I was depressed and was eventually medicated for it, but not many ppl saw that side of me. I am really good at hiding behind the mask that I have created). But hey, I think we all have a part of ourselves that we never show other ppl. That's just a part of me that VERY few get the inside scoop on.

So I wait, it'll all catch up w/ me eventually and I will just sit down and ball my eyes out until there aren't any more tear left but I still cry. It's hard to explain but that's what happens. I run from it until I just eventually have to MAKE time for it. I try to make sure there is someone there to help when that happens but it isn't always possible. Why wait you ask? B/c when I finally break and all is done and finished I just want to be held (as we all do) for a while. But mainly, when I break I am no good until I have slept the night b/c it physically and mentally exhausts me. Like I said...it ain't pretty.

So now I am sitting here at the last day of school and teacher post-planning. Why I am here I don't really know, it's not like my services are used more than maybe about once a day and most of those could have been done w/o me. I obviously need to get home and finish my living room and bed room that was left in shambles...lol. But even after I leave here I have to go meet with an interpreter friend of mine, I., and go to a meeting that we have at UGA about some work we are doing this summer. Then I'll get to go home. She and I are planning to go out and do something again this weekend. Don't know what yet b/c we're both broke but know that we don't wanna just sit at home. Especially me and especially right now, and I think she kinda knows that. I just wanna stay busy and get out of the house. Who knows what kind of trouble she and I will find to get into. For those of you who are curious, she's the one that died my hair blue for me back during Christmas. Hee hee. So you can imagine.

So I guess just keep me in your thoughts and prayers and toss me a line occasionally so that if I have nothing else to do I can always reply to e-mails.

So until next time kiddies:

Keep your nose clean and don't do anything I wouldn't do.
(Which don't narrow it down too much.)

Update, death, friends, and comfort

Past:
To catch you all up work has been hell, the supervisors and the boss has been conferenced w/ on the hell it has become and hopefully things will be better if not before then hopefully next year (in school terms).

B accused R of stealing $60, he was insulted that she would think he would do that, I was insulted that she would think I would bring a thief to her house, but could understand why she thought it b/c he went into her house to get some things for me, I had told her he was coming but something came up and she wasn't there when he arrived and he waited for 30 minutes or so and no one came and it would be the only opportunity he had to get them. He knocked on the door again and the door came open on it's own so he just went in and got my things and left...I understand both sides and at this point I just stay out of it. Whatever, it's their argument.

I am still single w/ no prospects in site. *sigh* Who knew that I would be single at 25 and not really care. I figured I would be married and considering children at this point....HA....there goes that life plan out the window, but you know what...that's ok. I am happy being single. I don't have to worry about anyone but myself and frankly, I haven't seen anyone worth running after. At this point I just want to find a church near where I live and then I am hoping everything else will just fall into place. So if anyone knows of a church near Lexington or East Athens area that uses the KJV Holy Bible and knows how to serve a proper communion (w/o salted crackers) please let me know.

So that's what's been happening.

Present:

This week has been a rough one. I was home last weekend and my Granny went into the hospital. Sunday before I left she was doing considerably better but I knew that I should have stayed. I had a gut feeling that I didn't need to go but I went against it. Monday afternoon my dad calls and tells me that Granny died. Tuesday I was back home and helping out every way I could. I was VERY close to my grandmother. She was truly an inspiration to me. She is the person that first taught me to sign my alphabet. You could say that she's probably the reason that I chose the profession that I have. Last summer she taught me to quilt and the thought of that still brings a smile to my heart and a tear to my eye. She was an inspirational woman even after she had her stoke 20 years ago that left her w/o the ability to speak. Her passing left a HUGE hole in a lot of ppl's hearts that'll never be filled. However, there is no doubt in any of our minds where Granny is today. I figure that by now she has talked the ears off of everyone that would listen as well as played them a tune or two on a harmonica.

A "wise" friend told me when he found out that Granny died that "now you will find out who your friends are and how many REAL friends you have." He knew my grandmother and knows how much she means to me. He also knows loss and speaks from experience and I'll have to say that he wasn't wholly wrong. B told me on Tuesday night that she would come and help out at the house. I called her on Wednesday morning and she was still laying in the bed. I can totally understand that, especially w/ everything that she has to deal w/, so it didn't bother me. She called me back later to see how things were going and if we were going to be able to go to town like we had wanted and I told her no b/c I have a lot to do around the house getting things cleaned and ready for family and the ppl to bring in food and what not. She understood that and asked again if I wanted her to come and help. I told her that she didn't have to if she didn't want to (I honestly wanted her to come but wouldn't ask b/c I learned a long time ago that if you ask in a situation like that ppl will come if they want to or not but the help that is there is really more of a hindrance than a blessing), she said she would come if I wanted her to and I told her that I didn't want her to do anything that she didn't want to do. Shortly after she told me, well I am going to come help for a little bit, I can't stay long but I'll be there shortly. Shortly never came. I am sure that there is a reason that she didn't make it and I still love her all the same...but I will have to confess that I am disappointed. Just wish she'd have at least called back to say she wasn't going to be able to make it.

Work could obviously give a shit less b/c my brothers' places of work all sent flowers or something to the funeral, same for several of my cousins but my work did nothing....oh wait...they found me a sub, but that's their job. Oh well, guess I know where I stand there as well. DJ called and gave her condolence and said that many of the kids had asked about me from the various clubs that I help w/ but that's about it.

R came to the funeral home and to the funeral. Both my grandparents always thought a lot of him and Granny always said she was going to steal him from me. Papa was really glad to see him there. W has called or inquired about me several times since he found out. He called Tuesday and talked to me, his mom told me Wednesday night that she had talked to him and he asked about me and wanted to know how I was doing, she told him I was taking it hard and she said that he told her that he would call not to worry about it, then the funeral was Thursday and he called me tonight just to chat (aka: check up on me though he'd never admit it). He's also kept in touch via text as well. He and R have really kept me afloat through this.

Admittedly, when I am heartbroken or upset, I don't ask for help. I know this. I rely on God to provide me w/ the help I need. If I do ask for help it's b/c I have no where else to turn. In a situation like this I don't like to ask for help b/c it puts a great deal of pressure on the person to accept b/c they know that you are in emotional pain and it's hard to say no. That's why I generally won't ask. People will help if and when they want to with me. I have gone through a great deal of my life like that w/ emotional situations. God has always provided the right person at the right time. I guess that B just wasn't the right person for the job on this one. Just as he has for the last 12 years, R stepped up and accepted the challenge (and believe me, emotional me is a challenge and you never know just what you'll get you just have to be ready to deal with whatever I throw you...sometime literally). And a true brother, W, who says that his main goal in life is to make me miserable every chance he gets, has really been there to offer words of comfort and perspective that only he could give. God has truly blessed me and I thank him daily for that.

"I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you." John 14:18

You just never know in what form he will show up.

Abandoning The Search And The Pandemonium That Ensues

Well it's been a while once again. But I have finally returned. I haven't been able to get online for any period of time at school so it's hard to post. But I FINALLY have net at home.....sorta. I got a new phone last weekend, a trio 650. It is a phone, a PDA, and it works as a modem as well. So I now have internet on my computer at home through my cell phone. My the things that we can do w/ cell phones these days. It's GREAT! Connection is a bit slow but, not really any worse than the dial up in which I am accustomed.

So things have obviously been busy at work lately. It's been the usual pain in the butt at times but what job isn't. I've made a few new friends along the way I suppose. Or at least I think I have. I was invited out for drinks by one of the teachers at school tomorrow night. Should prove to be interesting.

Let's see...I'm still single but, have basically given up on looking really. Not really worried about it anymore. However, everyone else seems to be. One of the teachers at school has apparently been plottin' against me. She gave me this number for a guy and told me to give him a call. I told her I don't call guys, tell him to call me. So she did....it took him a week but he finally called. I have talked to him twice. His name is S. and he's 34 (my oldest brother's age) which means he graduated in 1991. I, on the other hand, was only in the 4th grade at that point and didn't graduate until 1999. Which was when he got married and conceived his daughter. HUM.....He's a nice guy...just don't know if he's what I'm looking for.

So next weekend one of my fellow interpreters and I are going out for drinks. We have done this before and have been trying to plan to do it again but, haven't had the opportunity. However, this time she wants me to meet this really nice guy that used to date her daughter and after they broke up he still hung around. No biggie, all my X's still come and visit on occasion so that's not bad. He's around my age, also a good thing. And apparently he likes his women a little thick, ok so I can apply. And as she put it, if nothing else, he doesn't really know anyone in the area, and I don't know many ppl in the area so, if all else fails we can just be buddies. So far all sounds pretty well. We shall see how it goes after next weekend I suppose.

This past weekend was definitely one of interest to say the least. R. came up for a visit for 5 days. It was really nice having him around. It made me realize that I am ready to have that someone to come home to. It was nice knowing that when I came home from work that there was going to be someone there for me to talk to and at night knowing that there was going to be someone there to snuggle with. For those of you perverts out there who are sitting there going, "yea...we know what happened" I can assure you that you don't. I am still way to paranoid to be having sex, so don't even go there. However, I will say that I didn't sleep alone and that too was a nice change. I have found myself looking for the warmth of him at night and finding only the coolness of the other side of the bed. I don't know what that means or where it will go and only time will tell. Do I still care for R. and have feelings for him?.....yes. Do I think that we will get back together?....I honestly don't know. Do I trust him enough yet to start another full relationship w/ him?.....That would be the big question wouldn't it. I don't think that I can....not yet. I trust him more than I do many people. He is still one of the people that I talk about everything with and I consider him one of my best friends. But I don't know if I trust him enough to get into a relationship with again......not just yet. He may be moving to Augusta soon, which is only about 1 hour away. He is wanting to get out of South Ga. and closer to NC. He wants to live some place colder. It's something that he has always wanted to do. He has never liked the warmer climates. He has assured me that he's not moving up b/c of me, I'm just an added bonus. I think I am more of a part of the reason he's moving than he wants to admit to himself. I know that he wants to get out of South Ga. and he doesn't want to go back to Valdosta. I can understand that. There are several things in South Ga. that I think he is running away from in ways b/c he wants to get as far away from the memories of his 2 most recent devastating life altering mistakes. I can understand that too. He wants to get out from under the thumb and constant watch of his parent. Who doesn't understand that? He wants to live in a cooler climate. Well at least he's headed in the right direction. And he wants to be closer to me in hopes of being able to work things out in the future. I know that is one of the reasons for moving. He just doesn't want everyone else knowing that.....including me. oops. Even as we speak, he says I'm only a small part of the reason for his moving. At least he still understands that I still want him to date other ppl before we even consider getting back together and that and education is still also an important part of that equation.

So needless to say it's been interesting since I haven't been lookin' for a man anymore. Isn't that always how it goes? I am curious and ready to see how it all works out. It's just one of those parts of life that I wish I could fast-forward through and see how it all turns out. GRRRR. I hate waiting in suspense. Nothing I can do about it I guess. Nothing but wait. So until the next exciting adventure boys and girls, live well, stay safe, and always admire the flowers on the side of the road.

News From the Home Front

Have I mentioned lately that I LOVE SOUTH GA! The weather here is great. I am back in shorts proudly flashing the whiteness typically covered by pants. It's WONDERFUL!

I still don't have my car back yet. It should be done middle of this week but since I am not going home until late Friday I can't get it until Saturday. I'm just ready to be back in my car. B. is hopefully going to take me back on Friday when she gets off work. Maybe I should just quit my job and move back home, become a freeloader and be happy all the days of my life. Not like I would actually do that but dang....ain't nothin' like South GA. I have missed it dearly. I wish there was a way to get a job here in the south but there just isn't a need for Sign Language Interpreters in South Ga....at least none that isn't connected to Nanci Scheetz. I refuse to work anywhere that is connected to that woman, but that's just me and my demons, and she's a demon.

So I have been in South GA for the past week. It's been GREAT! There hasn't been a truly boring/lonely moment since I got here. If nothing else I can always call up a friend or two and find someone to hang w/. That has been WONDERFUL!!!! GEEZ, I miss S. GA. I have had a busy week though I must say. Monday I went to the dentist in Tifton, then to Douglas. After that I went back home and just hung out for a while. Tuesday I went out w/ R. and go me some steak from Texas Roadhouse (my favorite restaurant) and got me some good steak like I been cravin'. We had fun, messed around Valdosta for a while and then came back to my mom and dad's house to watch a movie and work on Mom's computer. Wednesday I spend the morning sleepin', dealing w/ a few necessary things and then I went to have lunch w/ my dad. That was nice. When I got back from lunch I dropped him off at the shop and then went to B.'s house. I spend all afternoon w/ her and left her about 10pm and came home and chilled until I went to bed. Today, Thursday I have come back to Douglas and am currently working at my old job at Trophy World and Gifts, INC. to earn a few extra dollars to help pay for my car. Tomorrow I get to go to my mom's school and talk to the kids about Deaf Awareness. After school Mom is going to take me to B.'s house and I guess I will wait for her to get back and get off work and then we will head out towards Athens. This has been my week, busy but enjoyable. Anywho, nothing major happening or going on lately so I guess that about catches you up. Boring and probably a lot of things that you could have cared less about but I'm bored and wanted to type something...so there ya go. Guess I will post more later...maybe next time there will be more interesting things happening. Although I will have to say that it's been nice to have a boring mundane life for a while. I had almost forgotten what it was like. It's nice not to have a lot of drama for a change. *sigh* Let's just all pray it stays that way. Love you guys!

:-( THE WEEK )-:

OK, so most of you know that my b-day sorta sucked big fat donkey di....well you get the point. I didn't think much of it right...just go on about my business, sulk about it for a day or two and move on...right? Yea no...not exactly how it happened. You know all the drama up til the 20th right.....so the morning of the 23rd I actually leave my house a little early. I was feeling kinda proud of myself and looking forward to what I hoped would be a pretty decent day. It was rainy that morning and a little hazy as I pull up to the stop sign at the end of my road. I look both ways....nothing, so I pull out and then I hear a BOOM! and my car starts moving to the left. I think, CRAP I just had a blow out and I'm gonna have to change a tire in the rain, good thing I left early. Then I hear a horn blow and I realize that someone had just hit me. I accidently pulled out in front of someone and they are now going into the shallow ditch. Oh yea, this is going to be a REALLY good day huh? so I pull over and get out and make sure that everything's ok. No one was hurt (Thank God!) and although damage was done to both cars it wasn't major damage, most appeared to be cosmetic and the axle's on both cars are bent but other than that there were no parts really knocked off or anything. However, I realized later why I didn't see the guy. You never think of things right on the spot when things like that happen, I was just so glad that no one was hurt and everything else that my mind wasn't functioning in analysis mode. So as I am thinking back over everything and trying to see it all over again in my minds eye I realize that I didn't see him b/c his headlights weren't on. The boy was driving a gray lost to the ground car (mustang) on a gray rainy morning w/o his lights on......hum....you tell me who isn't the sharpest tool in the shed. Needless to say that didn't help me any, I still got a ticket for not yielding while turning left. That's find and all, I get it but dang. If the boy had sense enough to have his lights on while driving on a gray rainy morning I'd have seen him. Oh well, as my daddy said, shit happens. So at this point I have decided that I will probably take the ticket to court if for no other reason that to see if I can at least get the fine reduced. I am already going to have to pay the insurance deductible of $500 to get mine fixed and the ticket is $130 more that I don't have. Maybe the judge will be in a good mood that day and have mercy on me. Pray that she does.

So right now I have my mom's car while mine is being fixed. What can I say, my mommy loves me. But needless to say that last 2 weeks haven't been a party. Nothing near, it's actually been quite frustrating. So that was Thursday, I obviously wasn't able to make it to work that day. My neighbor across the road let me use his truck to go to school on Friday. I am thankful for having some wonderful neighbors that have really stepped up to help me out. My dad came up Friday to get me and take me home so that I could get my mom's car. Saturday I went out w/ B. and her Dom. He took us out to eat at Tokyo Japanese Hibachi Grill. It was really nice. We decided that if nothing else we would celebrate the fact that at this point I am alive and not killing ppl..........yet. hee hee. After that we went to the bar and had a drink or two. B's Dom got sick while we were there but didn't tell us about it until later. We had fun though. Gave me some time away and not thinking about everything that had happened on Thurs. So while we are out on Sat. night W. called me and wanted to make a "business proposition" which ended up being EXTREMELY insulting to both B. and me, so you can imagine what it was. Then he texted me more times than I can count. The next day I told him that he had said enough the night before that he actually was able to piss me off, which is hard for him to do. I told him some of the things that he had said and some of the things that his friend had said when he got on the phone and he apologized. I haven't talked to him since. I was talking to him Sun. night on my way home and lost him when I hit the dead area (you all know how that goes) and tried to call him back. I left him a message to call me back and texted him to let him know I was home and to call me back......he never did. Oh well, his loss. I am done w/ trying to run after him. I was w/ the chase for a while, at this point he can come back and run after me for a while. I am tired of it. I have built that bridge and am crossing it as we speak, apparently leaving him on the other side........I just have to decide if I want to burn it when I get to the other side...hee hee hee. FIRE!!!!! it's so pretty.

So Monday and Tuesday I went to work in an obviously depressed, frustrated state of mind. Wednesday wasn't all that bad and today has just been me running around trying to get everything done that was required of me so it seems like things are back to normal....or at least as much so as they can be at this point (knock on wood). I still don't know much about my car. I need to call and see what they know about my car and when they think they'll have it fixed. All that is a mess, always is. The insurance agency and I have been playing phone tag for the past few days to no avail. We'll catch each other eventually. Just keep me in your prayers. I think we all know my patience on certain things are some what limited. *looking up*"Lord, I ain't prayed for patience, I'm happy w/ what I got."

So that's been my week...from Thurs. Feb 23rd until today. It's been a rough one but I have managed to survive w/o casualties. Needless to say, all comments of encouragement are appreciated, snide remarks will be edited to my liking before posting..lol.

Be well A/all!

Wanna hear it?...here it goes....

Ok, so as you all know, Friday was my birthday. Everything that I had planned to do this past weekend fell through, and I do mean EVERYTHING! Even the small minute little things that weren't really a big deal, went sour on me. It really SUCKED! So I was really looking forward to next weekend, b/c that was when B. was planning to come up and we were going to celebrate the way it was meant to be done.......theoretically that is. Apparently it was all in theory b/c as my luck would have it...she's not even going to get to come up next weekend. Go figure huh? So I guess I will go home. There's nothing else to do and I don't want to spend another weekend alone sulking in my house and being a house frow. I want to get out and do something and there's no one here to do anything w/. If I go home I can go get the birthday steak I was meant to have and spend some much needed time w/ mom and maybe even find some time to drag B. off to get our piercings. It's like I told R., I don't think I was meant to have good birthdays and Christmas-es b/c it never fails that is things are going to go wrong and I am going to end up crying it will always be on Christmas and my birthday. Any other day of the year it's not that bad at all....but those two days, no matter what I do, how careful I am, how meticulous or non-meticulous I am, it never fails that no matter what happens everything will go to the dogs and I'll end up in tears. Welcome to my world, and ppl wonder why I'm so screwy.

I will have to say that the best thing that happened this weekend was I got to talk to my baby boy (the youngest of the two boys that I kept while I was in college) on Friday. I cried then just b/c I was so happy to hear his voice. However, it made me realize that he's growing up on me, and I'm missing it. That was a really hard revolution to have b/c I have seen everything in this kids life. I was there for the first time he sat up on his own, the first steps he took, the first time we went to the bathroom by himself, I took him out to eat at his first sit down restaurant, I have been there for almost the entire first 5 years of this kids life and now I'm not. That's really hard. Then his brother, oh geez, he was 3 when I started keeping them so I was there w/ him for a lot as well and now he's in 2nd grade and I am sure at the top of his class b/c he's incredibly smart. I guess I just miss them both so much. I am ready for the summer to get here. I am definitely going to Canada for a visit. I don't care what it costs or what I have to do, it'll totally be worth it.

I have so much I know I will be doing this summer that it's scary. I will be in Fla. for a week this summer, then I will be a camp for 1 possibly 2 weeks, I will be in Canada probably for about a week, and then who knows what else will be thrown in there. It should be interesting. When I told the boys that I would be coming to visit them this summer the oldest of the two pointed out that it meant that I was going to have to get on a plane.....which is going to be a new experience for me b/c I have never been on a plane before. However, he comforted me by saying that he would be at the airport waiting for me when I arrived. He's so cute. I am sure that when I get to Canada that I will just rent a car and drive myself but still, it was a nice thought. My babies are concerned about me.

Anyway, so I guess that will be all for now. I am going to jet out a little early and go get some pics developed and maybe pick up a new camera. I need one and I have had my eye on one for about 3 weeks now. I think it should have my name on it, don't you? It's a 6 megapixl 12x optical zoom digital that with tax will cost me well more than I should be paying but oh my gosh, when I say I need one I mean it. I am still using the one that my mother had when I was 12 (if not before) that she handed down to me, you know the old 35 mm type that you take a pic and then wait 5 minutes for the flash to recharge. I think it's time for an update. Anywho, I will talk to you all later. Be well and don't do anything I wouldn't do.

Lemonade Anyone?

So I made it though V-day. This is a feat in itself. Since I work in a HS, V-day is a BIG deal. Walking down the hall you see balloons w/ expressions of love, flowers, more stuffed animals than you can count and some so big they weren't able to fit in a desk of their own and were forced to reside in the corner for the duration of the class. But then you were also able to easily pick out those single folks as they walked the halls dodging eye contact w/ everyone else in hopes that no one else would notice that they were not taken, and the occasional few singles who would frantically search the hall for their crush in hopes that he/she would notice them on this special day. *sigh* So needless to say it SUCKED being in a HS on V-day. Oh well, life moves on weather you go w/ it or not......so I move.
I'LL BE 25 TOMORROW!!!!
For those of you who haven't noticed....it's only ONE MORE DAY!!!! TOMORROW IS THE DAY PEOPLE!!!!! Mark it and let it be known. Tomorrow I will be........oh wait.....some of you don't know me.....don't know how old I am....and should we meet might think me younger.....humm....oh ta-heck w/ it....if you don't know me turn around and don't look....I'll whisper it...I'll be 25.
(You'll have to highlight the spot to see it. I'm being berry berry sneaky....so shhh...don't tell no body. Who knows how many other messages I have done this way thoughout the blog...hummmm...see, now I have your curiosity hummm?)
I'LL BE 25 TOMORROW!!!
Hopefully my b-day plans will go off as planned. Not holding my breath for it but one can always be hopeful. However, it seems that every time I turn around there's a road block and no one is coming, then I turn around again and 1 person is coming, then again they're all coming, then no one is again....so at this point, it's anyone's guess. We shall see I suppose. The last time I had a b-day go off w/o a hitch I didn't know about it. I helped plan the entire thing b/c I thought it was a party for someone else who's b-day is Feb 13th. I was helping plan a b-day party for her (at least, so I thought). So I get there and it is my job to keep this person occupied while things are set up, and she thought that she was keeping me occupied while they were getting things set up, so when we both came out of the room after having a very messy, very fun, baby powder fight we were both VERY surprised. Neither of us knew that the party was for us, we both thought that the party was for the other person. I obviously have some sneaky friends. It was great.
I'LL BE 25 TOMORROW!!!
Since then, they still haven't been able to completely clean up all the baby powder (that was my 17th b-day and believe me when I tell ya that stuff stays in the air and air vents and is impossible to get out of those corners) and every time I try to plan something it always falls through. I have decided that if I am going to have a b-day that happens the way it was planned, the best way to do it, is not to tell me about it. That's the only way it'll happen. Otherwise, there'll be more complications than you can count. Plus, I just love a good surprise.
I'LL BE 25 TOMORROW!!!
So I guess that we will see tomorrow who all is going to show. P. (a fellow interpreter) and I were planning to go out to dinner after school, before everyone arrived, but that probably won't happen until next week. She is getting sick and doesn't know if she will be here tomorrow and really doesn't need to be out in the weather. So that's no biggie, will gimmie a chance to go home and get everything straighten up before anyone arrives, if they do arrive. B. is supposed to be coming if she gets the money situation worked out and will probably arrive around 9:00 pm-ish and W. is going to try to come. If he is able to come he will be leaving after work and he never knows what time that will be (not like I know for sure what's up w/ him since the only communication I have had w/ him in over a week has been via text). So one is coming if the money can be arranged and the other if he doesn't have to work. HUM.....looking some what bleak. I hate it when that happens. Oh well, as they say, when life give you lemons, make lemonade.
I'LL BE 25 TOMORROW!!!
I think I should just open up my own shop. I don't think a stand would cut it...would definitely need something bigger w/ the quantity I have at this point. So I guess the next question is....Who's up for some lemonade?
DON'T FORGET I'LL BE 25 TOMORROW!!!! Y? B/C IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!

Surprises, V-Day, A Fair Deal & G. I. Joe

This weekend was definitely an interesting one. My parents came up and we had a nice dinner Friday night and then Saturday we got up, went to breakfast, baked a few pies, and watched a couple of movies before Mom and Dad headed home. Saturday night I went out to karaoke and had some fun. Sunday morning I had a few pleasant surprises that helped keep my mind off of W. for the weekend. It was nice.

Needless to say I haven't heard from W. and am really not expecting to. Can't say that I'm worried about it. I think I've let it go. I have put out my fleece and the requirements haven't been met. Although the time for it does not end until tonight at 12:00am but I am doubting that I will hear anything. Oh well, life goes on as I must as well. Big whoop. At this point I am tired of feeling like a 17 year old school girl w/ her first major crush. That gets REALLY old after a while and I know that B. is tired of hearing about it. L. and I have talked about a few things that have happened but she doesn't really know much about the W. drama. Everything else she knows about though....but I haven't had a chance to really sit down and talk to her about everything that has happened and went through my head on that topic.

AHHHHHH, so tomorrow is the day of the patriot St. Valentine. The day that couples look forward to for the romance and the guaranteed bump and snuggle (that is unless you REALLY screw up) and that all single ppl look on w/ distaste and despise. I suppose I will be w/ the singles this year. Sucks to be me huh? That's ok, I'll happily look at all those cute little couples w/ the disgust they deserve and make silent comments to myself about how they should just go get a room and keep all that sappy crap to themselves b/c no one wants to see that. AH, already I'm sounding like the little old lady w/ her cats. Fluffy and I will just have to have a good time of our own...lol....too bad I don't even have a fluffy at this point.

PeeWee will probably be coming home w/ me next time I go down to South Ga. though. Dad wants to get a new dog (Blue Healer) and he knows if he does that he will have to get rid of PeeWee if he wants his dog to live. For those of you who don't know, PeeWee is a murdering bastard that killed my baby, Casper, a gorgeous white American Bulldog. The little shit will lead any animal to the road that takes the attention away from him. Another example of this; we have a new little kitten that sleeps w/ him and he has really taken a shine to, this kitten's mother was a white cat. We also have a white cat and this kitten will follow the cat and look to it like it's mother. PeeWee has started trying to lead the white cat to the road to get ran over b/c the cat takes the kittens attention away from him. To say that he's jealous is an understatement. However, I couldn't stand knowing that he's my Papa's dog and I know how my dad gets rid of unwanted animals. Let's just say he tends to take them out w/ a bang, and leave it at that. PeeWee maybe a murderous little bastard, but he's an old dog that knows what it takes to get what he wants & to survive, and he's willing to do what it takes to get what he desires. I guess I can relate and hate to see him go out that way. He deserves to die naturally or in the same manner in which he has killed so many others (a nice hit and run situation). It's only fair.

As the saying goes: "What's fair for the goose is fair for the gander."
(For those of you who don't know or have always wondered b/c you aren't acquainted to the farm, a gander is a male goose. Just thought you'd like to know, and as G. I. Joe says: "Now you know, and knowing is half the battle.")

Don't forget...My B-day is on Friday!!!! 4 more days!!!!!!

Some Mythical Creatures Do Exist!

OK, so my parents are coming to visit me this weekend. They are leaving early this afternoon so that they can get here in time we can go out to dinner. Dad owes me $5 now b/c he bet me that I couldn't talk mom into leaving early and HA HA I did. Like I have said before, I'm the baby and the only girl.....I tend to get what I want. One way or another.

Next weekend should be interesting. B. will be here and hopefully W. will too. But I have this gut feeling that he won't be. This weekend he has some visitors coming down to see him from the Tifton area. One of them is a girl that he's went out on a date w/ a few times. Nothing serious, just dates, she's still got the V. Card. W.'s theory on that is NEVER take a V. Card b/c those b*tches just go crazy afterwards and don't wanna leave you alone. So I don't think that he's going to do anything but it'll be another body to wake up to and I know he'll at least be throwing on the "CB Charm." I'm ok w/ him doing all this...np...but I will have to say that I am a little jealous. Who wouldn't be though. *sigh* oh well. We did agree that there were no strings attached and that we were just going to stay friends at this point. Not much else I can do. I'm just hoping that he'll come up for my B-day and throw a little of that charm my way.

Who knows. I'm ok w/ staying friends w/ possibilities and maybe a few benefits. I just gotta be careful not to get all attached and stuff. I hate it when my head goes into girl mode. That has never really happened before. Must be something that he does to me I guess......that or L. has just had WAY too much of an influence on me lately. Either way it ain't good. I'm not supposed to have a girl mode. That's like finding out there isn't an Easter Bunny or Santa Clause. It's a mythical thing, my girl mode. Even I didn't know that it existed. It's the thing of nightmares....beware, it could happen to you too. Just don't tell anyone it happened to me....it'll ruin my reputation of being the all knowing testosterone bitch. Wouldn't want to ruin that one now would we? SHHH...don't tell anyone....but I sometimes also dress like a girl too. I told you it was a thing of nightmares. I will be doing this when we go out for my birthday if for no other reason than as a form of disguise so that ppl will not realize it is I who is out having a good time and getting hammered. Wouldn't want to ruin it for those who still see me as the goodie goodie either now would we. Too bad one of those ppl will be w/ me....isn't that right B.?

Anyway, so the count down is down to 7 more days........7 MORE DAYS!!!!! Fun shall be had by all. Come and join us if you dare. Until then, try not to have too many nightmares about me actually being a girl, giving a shit about how I look actually behaving like a girl b/c I'm interested in a guy. Just pinch yourself and you'll realize it's all fake. Don't believe any of it. See you all on Monday.....if I get the time.

7 MORE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's Back On BE-OCH!!!!!!!!!

9 more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good news. As far as I know everything may work out for my B-day. B. says she'll be coming after all. At this point in time I don't know how she is going to be able to swing it but she's found a way. Hopefully W. will be able to come up as well. At this point he said that he was going to try. I yet again find myself hopeful when he is concern. I am hoping that he will be able to come. That way I would be able to celebrate my B-day w/ 3 of my best friends. What more could a person want...well, maybe all my other friends to come and join us but I know it's a long drive.....and could name a few other things....but I will be nice.

Even better news is that since B. is coming for my B-day that I will be able to get my piercings!!!! OK, well, I say I'm excited. I will have to say that I was disappointed that I wasn't going to be able to get it done. I was looking at my jewelry that I had already bought and was hating that I was going to be able to use it for a while. Now I will be able to use it soon. YEA!!!! However, I will have to say that I am nervous about getting it done. I told B. that I had to get it done first so that I would actually go through w/ it. B/c if I watch her get it done and she screams I will probably be tempted to back out. However, if I get it done first I will not be able to back out. Plus, I like pain more than B. does..lol.

Anyway, so plans are back to normal and lots of fun w/ friends will be had.

9 more days!!!!

He said She said Drama

Anyone who knows me knows I HATE drama. Unfortunately that is about all I had this weekend. IT SUCKS! But I think you all know how I handle this kind of thing. I will generally take it to that person and say....what the heck. So I did this with S.

Needless to say, S. says that it's totally not true. She doesn't know how that was misconstrued in such a way but she definitely didn't say that about B. and me. We talked about it and her comment was, "I don't even know B., I met her for the 1st time Friday night. I have nothing to base a judgment on and I thought that she was really neat. In fact I hope that next time you are down we could all get together and have lunch sometime or something b/c I would really like to get to know her better." S. says that R. was wrong in what he posted and we discussed it and I honestly think that what was posted was probably not exactly what she said. J. told me that he was there for the entire conversation and that S. didn't do that, S. was actually trying to avoid the conversation that had anything to do w/ he and I b/c she didn't want to get stuck in the middle. Unfortunately, I think that she and J. have gotten put into that position b/c J. works w/ R. and S. has been my friend since elementary school. I talked to them last night and told them that I wouldn't discuss the situation w/ them unless they brought it up. I don't foresee that happening, which is fine w/ me. So B., don't take anything to heart that was said. Talk to S. before you get upset or just whatever, at this point I don't care. *sigh* DRAMA! Ya gotta hate it.

So....I finally talked to W. last night. Whoever said that men aren't complicated obviously has never dated one. We have basically decided that b/c he's never home and we'd never get to see each other much that at this point until he is able to settle down we will just basically stay friends with possibilities. So who knows. Doesn't matter to me at this point. Que cera cera. I am still trying to get him to come up for my B-day though. Maybe he will be able to. If not I'll be all lone b/c B. has already told me that she probably will not be able to come. L. and I may still get together and go out but I don't know, we're talking about celebrating later when B. can come so I don't know. Who knows what I will be doing for my B-day. Hopefully I'll at least be able to get a date or something.

This coming weekend my parents are coming up for a visit. Dad wants to take me out to dinner to celebrate my B-day. It's something that we've always done. He told me this past weekend that when mom goes to Washington DC this summer he's going to come and spend the week w/ me and we can go out on our traditional date and such then. We usually do this when mom goes for a weekend for Y-Club's CLC but I think they have already done that this year and he wasn't able to make it up so we are going to make up for it this summer. Ever since mom has been a Y-Club advisor Dad and I have had our Father-Daughter dates. It's a tradition that I have really enjoyed. It's not often that I have my dad's attention all to myself, and we all know that is something that every Daddy's Girl loves to have. I am no different. For those of you who don't know me I am the youngest child in my family, I have 2 brothers that are 9 & 7 years older than I am and I am the only girl.....I think it's safe to say I was spoiled as a child.

I have been looking for a few other things to do that will get me out of the house and meeting new ppl. I am looking at the Continuing Ed. classes to see what they are offering and am thinking about going to a soap making class tomorrow night. It's only $23 and seems like it may be fun so I will have to see if I can scratch up the money for that. I think that it would be interesting and if I learn how to do that I can make some for gifts and for personal use. That way I can make the smell of my preference. We shall see though. At least it would give me something to do. Anyone wanna come join me?

Anyway, so I guess I will jet out of here for the day. End the drama, end the insanity, end the madness, speak out against drugs and under age drinking, and all that. Be safe and always wear clean underwear, ya never know when you might have an accident.

Today's events and prayer requests

Why is it that weekends home are never restful. Next time I come home I am going to do just that...STAY HOME at least a little more. (That is when I am home in South GA). When I come home it always seems I am so busy I am searching for time to hang w/ all the people that want time with me but never am able to get to everyone in a manner which will satisfy them all. However, every time I do come home I always make time for Papa and Granny. Granny hasn't been doing the best lately and sometimes it seems that Papa is content to follow suit. Mom keeps me posted on how they're both doing on a regular basis when I'm not home and from reports, G-ma has been sleeping so heavily lately that sometimes they can't wake her up. Her vital signs and everything will be ok but she becomes so exhausted that when they try to wake her they are unable to. This really worries me b/c she is usually such a light sleeper. She also hasn't been eating like she should either, sometimes only what would amount to 1 meal a day. I was also told by mom and several other ppl as well as some of the nurses that she hasn't been smiling much lately. Any of you who know my g-ma know that's not like her. So on my visit today I was determined to not only get a smile but a laugh as well. I am proud to report that w/ some pickin' and teasing and some help from some DQ soft serve I was not only able to get a smile and a laugh but she also ate something. What can I say, I'm the baby grandchild on that side, I have my charm.

As usual Papa and I had our regular conversations about different things that are going on and such. Today was a bit different though. The conversation went something like this:

Pa: So what happened to your computer repairman?

Me: Who?

Pa: You know, your computer repair man.

Me: Oh, you mean R.? (Papa always comes up w/ nicknames for everyone. I have about 7.)

Mom: They aren't dating anymore. They broke up when she moved to Athens back in Aug.

Pa: Oh ya did? hum....can't say as I blame him. It's hard to have a relationship so far away from each other.

Me: This is true (Papa doesn't know the real reason we broke up and I don't feel the need to tell them b/c they always liked R. and wouldn't have it any other way).

Pa: Well let me give you my advice about it. You need to un-break. If you don't he's liable to find some other girl and marry her.

Me: Well Pa, if he does I guess it just wasn't meant to be. I'll just have to be ok with it at that point.

OK, so my grandfather is worried. I get it. I know why. He and I have had this conversation many times. He doesn't want me to end up a spinster. He's already afraid that my brother will be a forever bachelor and he doesn't want me to end up living alone for the rest of my like and not having children and so forth. He also knows that I want him to be one of the officiants at my wedding and he knows that he's not going to be here forever and he wants to be there for that as much as I want him here for it. I get it and I could have told him why I wasn't dating R. anymore and I know he'd have understood and would have agreed w/ the decision I made to end it. I know this b/c I have heard him council others before in situations. He and I have even talked about it before w/ another guy that I have dated. But I couldn't tell him that R. had done that. It just didn't seem right. So R., when you read this, just know that my family still thinks of you.

When leaving my visit w/ Granny and Pa I often stop into several other ppl's rooms as well. Some of them I met in my many trips to the nursing home while others I have known all my life. I usually stop in to see W.'s g-ma b/c I have known her all my life but she also happens to be 2 rooms down from Papa and Granny and in a room w/ another woman that I have grown very fond of as well, Mrs. E. Mrs. E. always wants to know when my mom and I are going to come back and sing again. Mom and I try to go to the nursing home and sing when we can, and we generally have a relatively large audience. I told her I would try my best to set something up the week of my spring break while I was home. So guys, help me remme, the week of March 13th I have to sing at the nursing home (come join if you'd like) in addition to going and talking to my mom's school about deaf awareness and Deaf Culture. So this paragraph is just basically a reminder for me for later.

When I left the nursing home I went to my nephew's B-day party. As always children are always a joy to be around and help you forget the heavy burdens on your mind. And I swear that kid has almost every Thomas the Train thing they make. LOL. When I left there I went to B.'s house. While I was there we talked about a few things. I went to check and see if R. had posted on his blog and she said he hadn't b/c she had already checked it. I asked her if she had posted on her's and she shook her head 'no' so I didn't bother checking. When I got home I jumped online for a few minutes to check on a few things and possibly post before bed myself. While I was online I checked R.'s site for myself and found that he had posted but it had only been w/in the past few hours. No biggie right. The thing is that in reading his I found that my best friend from elementary school, S., had basically gone 2 faced on me and stabbed me in the back. How you ask....

Fri. night I went to a party at her house and brought B. w/ me. After the party we talked about some things and I asked J. (S.'s husband) how R. was doing (he works w/ R.). J. said R. was doing fine as far as he knew and we discussed the situation a little. J. told me that he thought that I was doing the right thing but it was going to obviously hurt R. for a while but he really was the right thing to do for the better of things in the long run. S. agreed w/ him. However, S. apparently went up to R's work today and told him that I was wrong and that she didn't agree w/ me and that she thought that I was going wild and it was all b/c of B. Good to know who your true friends are huh? That bridesmaid list just keeps getting smaller and smaller.

Shortly after read all this R. gets online and I shoot him a line explaining that I was indeed going to talk to him on the phone about everything but he read the blog before he called which was something I wasn't expecting him to do so the actual conversation was never had and that I was sorry about all that. We talked for a few mins and he said that the post from today was spawned off of the post that B. had made. *Ok...wait....now didn't B. tell me earlier w/ that shake of the head that she had not posted today* so I went and read B's blog. Apparently she was pissed at me as well. ARGH. So I went to comment on B's blog and it wouldn't allow me to post. So who knows. It's all drama. I guess I will talk to her about it at church tomorrow.

When it rains it storms.

I do think that the conversation w/ R. was a positive one. I think now he sees where I am coming from. I don't want to do him like my X, JR, did me. That wouldn't be fair. At least now I hope he has a better understanding. I know that things will be hard for him for a long time, they were for me when I went through it, but I think in the long run it will be for the better. And who knows, in a while after things have settled and he's been able to let go and get back into the groove of things we will be able to chat regularly again and it not be a problem. I look forward to that day b/c I miss talking to him as well but I know it has to be done. I just don't want to drag him through the mud like JR did me. But then again, I've said that already. I just hope that one day he'll understand.

So, I was supposed to talk to W. tonight but that still hasn't been able to happen. I did talk to him around 9:30ish and he said he was still at work. I know he was b/c you could hear it in the background. I told him to text me when he got off and I would call him back if I was at home. He texted me at 1:30 and said he was still at work that he would call me tomorrow or something. He knows now what is on my mind and what I want to know, so I will hopefully know what's up soon. His work hours are sometimes insane. He works as long as the shipments are coming into port. Just depends on when and if they harvest that day. Apparently they were busy at the fields today which makes them busy at the ports. Keeps them "balls to the wall" as he so poetically puts it. Oh well, I'll wait. Not like I have much else to do anyway. Besides, when he calls tomorrow I'll probably be driving home and I always welcome a call at that point. The road can be such a boring place at times.

Well I guess I should be off now. It's almost 2:30am and I have to get up for church tomorrow...or would that be today. Oh well, guess I'll just have to take a short nap tomorrow. Be well all and don't forget to say your prayers before bed. With the way things have been going lately, I think we all need them.

Bridge in Progress

*SIGH* So, let's see....I basically went home feeling like shit yesterday b/c of the obvious harsh truths. It SUCKS to have to end it like that w/ R. I know it hurts him but I know it has to be done. He e-mailed me and said he wouldn't be writing, calling, or contacting me for a long time. I know he still loves me and wants things to work out but I don't know if that will happen. I don't want him to sit around waiting on me. W. suggested that I give him"one last ride" first but when I explained the implications of that he understood and agreed that would be a bad idea. Seems he'd had a similar situation w/ an X as well though and agreed that I probably was doing the right thing. *sigh* I just hate it when I have to hurt ppl on an emotional level. But otherwise it's almost like I am playing w/ R.'s emotions and that's even worse. I have been there and done that w/ J.R. and that REALLY sucked. Looking back it would have been SOOOOO much easier on me if he had made a clean break as well. He didn't though and I ended up having a mental breakdown b/c of it. NOT PRETTY! I don't want to do the same w/ R. He deserves better.

B. and I had a long talk about it all yesterday and she left me feeling like shit...then when I called her last night she didn't want to stay on the phone long b/c she was tired b/c we had been on the phone until 2:00 the night before. I get that...NP right? Yea...then I get waken up at 11:30 w/ a text from her saying that she had gotten freaky w/ Mr. V again. OK....wait....am I the only one that thinks this situation is TOTALLY F'd up? I get it though. I totally understand. I'm disappointed but I get it. Can't say that I haven't been there. I pretty much did the same thing w/ J.R. so I really do totally get it. However, W. and I have a bet that they'll get back together before V-day. Who knows if we're right - I don't. I'm just praying that things will work out for the best for her. Lord only knows what that is...I don't.

So from the above you have probably figure that I finally talked to W. this morning. We were texting b/c of everything that has been happening outside of the stuff w/ he and I and he told me to call him and I did. I'm glad I did. By the time that I got to school I was more at ease. I fell asleep last night (the first time I went to sleep) crying b/c I felt like things were going to hell in a hand basket. Basically for the first time in a really long time frustration caught up w/ me and overwhelmed me all at once. I hate it when that happens. W. helped me sort some things out and told me just not to expect so much. We talked about several things and before I got off the phone w/ him I told him to call me back when he got off work b/c I wanted to talk to him about some other things. Typical guy, he thought it was something bad and wanted to know what it was about, "is it bad, good, something I won't like...what?" I told him I didn't think that it was bad but then again I didn't know what he would think. He asked if it was about the situation w/ us and I did confirm that. I told him I had been considering some things and I want to know his thoughts on it. I'm prepared for whatever he says. If he tells me he doesn't want to get into a relationship right now I am ok w/ that. Not a problem. Like I have said before, worst case scenario is that we are just friends. With W. I am ok w/ that. I know that no matter what he'll always be a pain in my a$$ so either way nothing really changes much. It really is a can't lose situation.

*Sigh* So I suppose that we shall see....FINALLY. If he gets off work early enough to call and talk that'll be nice. If not, he knows what I want to talk to him about and he may dodge it for a while. That's ok too. At this point.....I'm good w/ whatever. I can't keep putting things off and waiting for everyone else. Like I tell everyone else....Build a bridge and get over it. So the bridge is in progress.

Today I am driving home to visit the family. My nephew's b-day is the 7th so his party is this weekend. Can't miss that and it's time to go see Papa and Granny again as well. Should be nice. I am to S.'s house first b/c she is having a party. Kinda like Home Interiors only w/ sex toys. That will definitely be interesting. Then Sat. I have the birthday party and will probably leave there and go hang w/ B. for a while. Hopefully she will be able to go to church w/ me on Sun. Then it's back home for me. 14 more day until my birthday but unfortunately it may not happen to be anything. B. may not be able to make it due to lack of funds. If W. comes it won't be a big...we'll just go on as planned just w/o the new piercings. Otherwise....who knows. I trust that it'll all work out on it's own. Every other b-day I have ever had has never been a big deal...why should this one. I think that the last time that I had a party of my own I was 7. I had some ppl that had come to have a sleepover. It was great, until my mom found I had lice and everyone had to go home. I think I learned from that not to plan anything. LOL. I am sure that L. and I will go out and do something, it'll just be on a smaller scale. We'll figure it out.

So, conversation w/ W. to be had and so forth. I am sure that will show up here at some point. Until then I guess that is all that has happened that is stuck in my head and heavy on my mind at this point. Hopefully no one else will try to add to the already full load. There's just one thing I have wanted all day long and haven't had.

I just wanna hug!

Some one to snuggle and watch a movie w/ while relaxing and thinking about nothing but the feel of a nice warm body next to mine would be nice.....but a hug would suffice. LOL.

So again kiddies, until next time....and as always, don't forget the safe word. It really sucks when that happens.

Harsh Truths (&15 more days)

Ever noticed that the truth is usually hard to come by and when you finally get it you wish you hadn't b/c it's always harsh, not what you expected and definitely not what you wanted to hear.

This is what happened to me last night. I was talking to B. about the current situation w/ R. and how he's finally got a date and all but I don't know if he's really letting go. I worry about him and I don't want him to end up missing out on things that would be better for him b/c he wants to get back together w/ me. At this time that ain't happening. He cheated on me....broke 1 of my pure and simple rules. I can trust him as a friend but not in a relationship. Who knows when that will change. But when I ended it we agreed that we would stay friends. Problem is, he hasn't really been letting go. He's trying now but I think in many ways he's still holding tight. B. tells me I am going to have to be cruel to be kind. That I need to cut him loose so that he will be able to move on. At least for 6 months or a year so that he can have time to process everything and really move on. We haven't done that. I told B. I didn't think that would be best but I could see what she meant but I hated to just do that. I have always prided myself in that my house is always open to anyone who needed or wanted to come or call or what-have-you. So she finally dropped it and we went on to other conversations.

Then the bitch got sneaky on me. I hate it when ppl basically make you give them the same advice that they have just given you so that you will have the realization that they are right. But that's EXACTLY what she did. We went to talking about how she never got over Mr. Vanilla (V.) the first time and that's why she was so quick to go back to him. She never stopped loving him. My remark was, "that's b/c he didn't let you get over him. He stayed around as your friend and you never had the chance to...............well damn......you're such a bitch...you just turned the tables on me." Needless to say, she made her point. Doesn't mean I have to like it. Doesn't mean I want to do it. But I see what she means. She's right. R. hasn't had time away to process that we aren't together anymore. We have stayed friends and still talk on a very regular basis. I don't want him to forever be waiting on me to possibly change my mind about us. Who knows if that will ever happen. I want him to move on and have a life and make new friends and memories that don't include me. That's part of moving on.

B. dropped everything and ran back to Mr. V the minute he offered. I don't want R. to be like that. He deserves better. I know I haven't been fair to him in many ways by staying such close friends at this point. He does need to move on and not have contact for a long stint. Now comes the hard part.......actually doing it. I HATE hurting ppl's feelings. I suppose you could say I'm overly empathetic. I know what it's like to get hurt and I don't like doing it to others. Anyone got any suggestions?

I still haven't talked to W. since I left last weekend. It's now Thursday. HUMMM.....oh well. They say hope floats but I guess this time mine sunk. At least we're still friends. I know that b/c we did text Monday and Tuesday. Nothing really yesterday though. One of the students I interpret for is routing for me though. I don't have my hopes up or anything. At this point I really am fine w/ us just being friends and hanging out whenever we are both home at the same time if that is all that is to come of it. No biggie. As Patrick says on the last show of the 1st season of the BBC comedy Coupling in his drunken sleep, " There are other fish in the toilet.....of love." I just seem to have better luck at pulling out sh*t. I'm diligent in the belief however, that eventually the sewer will be cleaned and then the fish will start to bite. I refuse to become what Jeff (same series) calls "an unflushable." That's why I'm not hangin' on for W. If it happens, it happens...if it doesn't, oh well, at least we had a little fun along the way. *evil grin*

B., just remme it's a COCK that is the rooster we want...not a cock. ;oD And that's an additional $4.99 to your bill. hee hee.

So remme kiddies, when traveling the roads of life:

Love hurts, life's a bitch, and the truth is never easy.

and

It's only 15 more days until my B-day!

Until next time - *blows kisses*

A Reason, A Season, or A Lifetime

I was sent this and I thought that it really applied to many things that have happened lately, not only in my life but in yours too. I think sometimes prayers are answered w/o us ever realizing it. Sometimes we just need a little reminder.

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PEOPLE WHO COME INTO YOUR LIFE

I am posting this to see how many actually read this blog. Your response will be interesting. Pay attention to what you read. After you have finished reading it, you will know the reason it was posted.

Here goes:

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a Godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your Turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

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There we forwarding instructions for it b/c it was originally an e-mail. So if you want all that let me know and I'll e-mail it to you. I just decided to post it and share it b/c I thought it had some really good points. Hope you enjoyed.

St. Augustine, W., and 17 more days

OMG!....Let me tell ya! St Augustine was WONDERFUL! As most of you know I took the 7 hour drive from Athens, GA to St Augustine, FL this weekend so that I could go on a date w/ long time friend, W. (Does that make me completely pathetic that I would travel that far for a date...ah...who cares.) Not to sound like Tony the Tiger or nothin' but....IT WAS GRRRREEEAAATTTT! We were both just curious to see what would happen if we went on a date, so we agreed to give it a try and since I was looking for a reason to get out of the state and to somewhere warmer, we decided that I would go visit him at his company condo on the beach in St. Augustine. It was BEAUTIFUL! The beach was cool, breezy, and enjoyable to be on. Especially when you had someone to share it with. I really wasn't expecting anything from this weekend. Just a little fun and whatever else happened, w/ no strings attached and knowing that no matter what, if all else failed, we'd still be close friends as always. However, I come home hoping that things will eventually become more than that. We didn't make any commitments before I left, but agreed that we would leave it open and just let things happen as they may and just see where it goes from here. We shall see I suppose, but I'm really hoping.

Scary thing is, I came home after this weekend behaving like a HS girl w/ a major crush (which is something that I have NEVER done). I was even freakin' giggling. GIGGLING!...ME?! I NEVER giggle. It was scary in a way but OMG! I wouldn't change it for the world. B. says I make her want to pull her hair and scream ,"Gag me w/ a spoon" b/c I sound like such a sap. L. just laughed at me and didn't really say much. She hasn't really heard as much of it as B. has, but enough that she knows what all has happened and what's going on. B. is just all up in the sh*t I guess you could say, b/c she's the one that I will typically talk to about it. L. and I are usually talking about her drama, she tends to keep enough of it to hold a complete conversation and make me forget what I was going to talk about..lol. Plus, L. usually just wants the basics where B. wants all the nitty gritty juicy details. There were plenty to be had on this trip and should be interesting to see what happens the next time. Can't say that R. has been really overjoyed about the whole thing. He got kinda down in the dumps about it, but I can't keep hiding and with-holding things b/c I think it might hurt him. That's not good for either of us. He has to start letting go and moving on more than he has. We can stay friends no problem, that will be fine, but a relationship is out of the question at this point. I have two rules for any relationship. 1.) Communication is KEY, w/o it there is no relationship, and 2.) Don't cheat on me. If you wanna mess around w/ someone else at least have the decency to break up w/ me first. Doesn't seem like much to ask I would think, but for some reason I haven't found a guy yet that has been able to stick to my rules.

*Sigh* Oh well. Maybe things will progress w/ W. and he'll be able to. If not....he can hit the curb just as quick as the rest of them. I think that he and I already have the communication thing down. We're both blunt and out spoken and for the most part feel free to say whatever is on our mind to the other. We always have. I guess that comes from the fact that we grew up together. And he typically has the same philosophy on relationships as I do. "Window shopping is one thing, but that doesn't mean that you can buy the merchandise." Time will tell. I'm hopeful though, but I don't know what he's thinking at this point. I think he's afraid to start a relationship b/c it would be a long distance one b/c he's always on the road and never knows where he's going to be from one week to the next and when he might have a day or weekend off. That is one of his major barriers right now. But that's just me speculating. I on the other hand don't have a problem w/ long distance relationships. I think that if you can make it through the long distance stuff there's a better chance that the relationship will be a strong one. And it just makes the time that you do have together all the more sweet.

Before I close though, I would like to post a reminder that it's only 17 more days until my B-day. Don't forget to buy me a shot (or at least have one in my honor)!

24 days, weekends, and procreation

ok...so we're down to 24 more days. I'm keepin' track ppl. I'm excited b/c there are so many things to come w/ it. The new piercings, sharing w/ friends, and several other possibilities are on the horizon. Who knows what's to come next, but I'm somewhat content w/ things at this point. It's been a while since I could say that but I think I am. However, I am enough of a realist to know that it could all change tomorrow but I will enjoy it while it lasts.

B. came up for the weekend w/ A. It was nice to have them around. Unfortunately, A. got sick while she was here and we never did figure out what caused it. It really worried me but she didn't let it get in her way of getting the attention she wanted. Go figure. I think that's any kid. If anything being sick earned her more attention than she knew what to do w/ or even wanted at moments. However, I do believe that B. still enjoyed herself. She got some pampering that she so well deserved. She finally got to see my house and I think she fell in love w/ it. We even have plans for using the attic for the house boys..lol. So if anyone know where we can get our hands on a couple....please send the info. 2 will do but 4 is preferred. They should know how to do a decent pedacure or at least be willing to learn, how to give a good message but also have the capability to be dominate when the time arises.

So we all know that I have plans for the weekend of my B-day and for the weekend before....I now also have plans for this coming weekend. One of my best friends that has been like a brother to me(I think I have already told you about him before), W., his B-day was yesterday. Since I wasn't able to go down for a visit the past weekend he asked me to come and help him celebrate his B-day this weekend. What choice did I have but to agree...I mean geez we have been friends since we were young and I used to force him to play Barbie w/ me. Oh...did I mention that his job has him stationed in St. Augustine and that is where I will have to go visit him....so naturally I agreed. We've been talking a lot lately and are curious about where things would lead so I think we are going to do some experimenting while I am there. Nothing major just going to see what will happen. It should be interesting. We basically both agreed that whatever happens...happens...that if nothing else we'll always be really good friends. We shall see. Most of you will probably know how it went well before I am able to post it so I don't tell you that you'll get a full report here...I really DOUBT that will happen but hey...... You'll be told if nothing else.

The next weekend is when I am going home for the weekend as well. Gotta go see my nephew for his B-day. He has sent me word that he's mad at me. Last time I was there I was supposed to help him rebuild his railroad track but things got hectic and I didn't have time so he went word to me that he was mad at me b/c I didn't help him rebuild so if nothing else....I have a railroad to setup. Can't have the babies being all mad at me and stuff. Come to think of it I gotta call my boys in Canada, the 20th was the oldest one's B-day as well as his mom's and I didn't even realize it had passed. Shame on me. Oh well, I know one phone call I will be making tonight. Amazing how many B-days there are this time of year. There must be a lot of procreation done between April and June b/c most of the ppl I know are born Jan., Feb., or March. I lost count of how many ppl I know w/ my B-day. I remember that I used to call in to the radio station on my B-day w/ all the names of ppl w/ my B-day and they always wanted to know if I was pulling their leg and what they put in the water in my area especially considering that I went to school and was in the same grade as most of them. I guess back home we're just so country we don't feel right if the animals get ahead of us. The song, "You and me baby ain't nothin' but mammals, so lets do it like they do in the discovery channel," would apply in my area.

So I guess the lesson of the day is....

Live life and enjoy it, have fun and every once in a while just let go and see what happens. After all, as L. says, "it's just another finger." But as always, don't forget the safe word.

Be well A/all!